Safe in his arms

When I was little, I constantly heard that you'll miss (insert whatever cute childish thing I did) when you get older. I had no idea how right my parents would be. We grow up and grow old. Suddenly there is responsibility. What? Homework! I thought we would just finger paint?!

Nope, Responsibility. The more we grow up, the more we "can handle." Today has been one of those days where I would give anything to be sitting in my old bedroom dressing up my dolls (or dog, whoever had my interest more) and not worrying about anything. No responsibility. We grow up being groomed for this responsiblity. We learned what things we shouldn't do and should do. No one mentioned any part about growing up and making the decisions of what we should and shouldn't to be easy. It was so easy when Mom said it but now it's a whole new big and scary world.

I know I should go to church every sunday, buuuuut I closed at work last night and I need the sleep. Proverbs 20:13

I know that we should not talk about others. Romans 1:29-32

I know that I need to be unselfish and love all. Proverbs 10:12

I know all these things and my mother would be so proud. Or would she?
I can't even claim to do ANY of these on a full-time basis. I'm not responsible. I'm wild and reckless. One minute, I think I've got everything together and the next minute I'm falling apart and in turns. Here I was thinking I've got it all down, Becky taught me well.

Except, I was following myself and not the one. God is supposed to be my rock, my fortress. My parents, God bless them, opened my eyes to what kind of decisions I should be making. Yet they were showing me something else, something much bigger than "don't pick gum off the bottom of the table."

They were showing me God, how to be true servants of God and I failed thinking it was me. I was wrong. It's all about going back to the basics. There shall be NO Gods before me.
Yeah, lets start there and be safe in his arms, not my own.
Psalms 62:1-2

¹ Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
² Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.