Wonderer

It seems every now and then, I just need to write. I know that no one is reading this. Hell, half the time I forget that I have my own blog, a very much abused and little used one, but one none-the-less.

Lately, I've been debating about my job. I work a full-time job at Meijer as a Prepared Foods Team leader. It's a pretty good job considering, I'm 21 and still going to school full-time. I make good money so I can always have that extra buck to do fun stuff. I've made a lot of good friends at this location, and the one in Jenison as well.

But lately, the hours are killing me. I'm 21 and I'm working 45+ hours a week on top of school. All the extra money I have to do fun stuff, is crammed into one day excursions. Say, I'd like to plan a trip some place, nope. Can't take off work because I'm a Team leader. I'm also not one to shy away from more responsibility but I can't shake the feeling lately that I'm not sufficient enough to do my own job. When I first took it, I felt on top of the world. I was awesome and now I'm just barely mediocre.

Then I think, "wow, there are so many negatives to this job. I should just quit." Then I remember a good friend of mine once said she took a job and felt compelled to stay because God was trying to show her commitment(props to Melissa for sticking it out) but now I fear that may be my problem.

Any man that I've dated will be able to vouch for this, I am a runner (figuratively and literally). Anytime something gets hard or doesn't seem to be working anymore, I run away. I figure some time away will do me good, let me cool down; which, it always does. The problem is, I never seem to stick with anything long enough to really make a good impact. What if that's all I want to do all my life? In highschool, I worked at one place for a year and another for two years and now, it's 8 or 9 months tops.

I guess I'm just a lost soul for now. I'll keep hanging until I fall, Lord willing.