Counting down

I can't believe how fast the time has flown. I started at 60 days...and now it's 29! The love of my life, my fiance, left for Air Force basic training on Jan 24. It has been the most challenging experience for me. Every small issue/problem we had was magnified after he left and with hardly any means of communication, it meant dealing with a lot of stress by myself. Something I've never been particularly good at.

Now, half way through, I feel a little stronger. I feel more confident with our relationship and most importantly I feel more trusting. I know that people always say distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it really does change the dynamic of your relationship. I went from needing confirmation from HIM to being able to confirm myself. Something I needed to learn how to do. It hasn't been easy by any means and there are still days that I regress but I'm working on it. I'm learning how to trust despite the fact that I'm scared of what will happen once I trust someone fully.

This week, I'm learning to put any emotions I have besides and support my man, no matter what. He needs it and can learn how to deal. There's something to be said about being devout and sacrificing what you feel to help another. It feels good. I know that he needs everything he can get right now and so I'll put away my selfish needs for him...

I wish I could say more but tonight, I need to sleep. I just wanted to write something for 2012!

28 MORE DAYS! I love you sweetheart!