The love of Lists

So I stole this from a friends blog and I loved it. I love that way it made me slow down and re-think my life. So here we go with the fun!

Loving:
1. How amazing air-conditioning has felt during the summer months.
2. The fact that my boss is indeed shunning me for quiting.
3. Paying bills on time
4. One last year at Grand Valley before moving on into the real world
5. The plans that God has for me
6. The idea of marriage

Not Loving:
1. The fact that my boss is indeed shunning me for quitting
2. The lack of desire I have to do anything good for me
3. Gas prices
4. The lack of anything in my refridgerator or cabinets too for that matter

Accomplishing:
1. Peace in my relationship with God.
2. More self-confidence
3. Pushing myself despite my lack of desire to do anything
4. Fast knowledge of life in the Air Force (more to come on that soon)
5. Being joyous

Preparing:
1. My strength and trust in people
2. What "could" come in the near months.

Forgetting:
1. What people say about me
2. That I really shouldn't be watching Harry Potter
3. I am insecure girl who will never be truly loved.

Reading:
1. Gotcha, Don't remember?
2. Velvet Elvis, Rob Bell
3. As You Like It, Shakespeare
4. Psalms 62
5. Proverbs

Believing:
1. That God is who He says He is
2. That God can do what He says He can do
3. That I am who God says I am
4. That I can do all things through Him


I think I'm liking the way that things are headed but honestly and truly, I can never say that definitely. But for now, I'm happy and that's what matters right?

Wonderer

It seems every now and then, I just need to write. I know that no one is reading this. Hell, half the time I forget that I have my own blog, a very much abused and little used one, but one none-the-less.

Lately, I've been debating about my job. I work a full-time job at Meijer as a Prepared Foods Team leader. It's a pretty good job considering, I'm 21 and still going to school full-time. I make good money so I can always have that extra buck to do fun stuff. I've made a lot of good friends at this location, and the one in Jenison as well.

But lately, the hours are killing me. I'm 21 and I'm working 45+ hours a week on top of school. All the extra money I have to do fun stuff, is crammed into one day excursions. Say, I'd like to plan a trip some place, nope. Can't take off work because I'm a Team leader. I'm also not one to shy away from more responsibility but I can't shake the feeling lately that I'm not sufficient enough to do my own job. When I first took it, I felt on top of the world. I was awesome and now I'm just barely mediocre.

Then I think, "wow, there are so many negatives to this job. I should just quit." Then I remember a good friend of mine once said she took a job and felt compelled to stay because God was trying to show her commitment(props to Melissa for sticking it out) but now I fear that may be my problem.

Any man that I've dated will be able to vouch for this, I am a runner (figuratively and literally). Anytime something gets hard or doesn't seem to be working anymore, I run away. I figure some time away will do me good, let me cool down; which, it always does. The problem is, I never seem to stick with anything long enough to really make a good impact. What if that's all I want to do all my life? In highschool, I worked at one place for a year and another for two years and now, it's 8 or 9 months tops.

I guess I'm just a lost soul for now. I'll keep hanging until I fall, Lord willing.